Sam Hartman (hartmans) wrote,
Sam Hartman

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Two months?

I broke up with Susan somewhat under a year ago. It seems longer. In reflecting on what I wanted to do next, I realized that I wanted to try and work on taking advantage of opportunities as they became available. I felt that I had been missing out on potential friendships and relationships because I was moving somewhat too slow: I took too long pondering whether someone was actually interested or how to best respond and life intervened. It turns out that this has been a real problem. Over the past year I learned about several opportunities ranging back as far as 14 years ago that I missed because of timing or lack of perception. Some of these were opportunities for deeper friendships, some potentially for fulfilling relationships. I wasn't going out of my way to look for missed opportunities in the past—doing so seems unhealthy or creepy—but I was thinking about the problem and when you do that, you seem to just happen to run into data that interests you.

Over some time between a week ago and two weeks ago, I've fallen into a new relationship. I think I'm nearing the end of the initial exploration part of the relationship where you end up spending insane quantities of time with your new lover; things may be calming down a bit. We were realizing how much had changed in the last week and were discussing when we had first met. I went back through email logs and realized that we met April 15. Before that time we'd never interacted at all.

Two months! Sure, I am working on taking advantage of opportunities, avoiding unnecessary doubt and improving situational timing. But two months from not knowing each other at all to being important in each others' lives. I'm not sure whether to be delighted, shocked, scandalized or amused. I think I'll be all of the above and enjoy the situation as it unfolds. I can afford to just live for the most part. Sure, there are things to consider, problems that will develop, but I can worry about that in the fullness of time.

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